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Banished

I wish it rains a bit more in winter. Particularly the one that is about to end in another week or so. Clearly this is one winter I hated a lot and when for the first time in my life I felt shaking uncontrollably in my room after I was woken from my sleep, I knew something was different. It was not that the cold was unbearable, but merely suggesting that I may have some weakness - something that I am sure i would never try to find out in the near future.

I went through the whole winter without buying a black jacket for myself. I wore one, friends', once this year when I went out on a really cold night for dinner in bike - I had to. I am in need of some cash urgently - I would need it for my loan payment come the first of next month and I am broken already with no hopes of getting a early salary this month. I know the solution but also the ramifications of it.

I have always been fascinated by historical wars and battles. Atleast a part of my wikipedia time would be spent on military geniuses of bygone eras, the roman legions and their conquests, the Norman conquest of England, the medieval years and so on. I was always a history buff - that was my favourite subject in school and I still believe it remains so. As often, I also foresee a danger in being so - I may be living in the past.

There are times when I really think I made a really stupid decision to read 'the fountainhead' again. As said, it has a lot of lessons - lessons which I am unable to tread and lessons which I am unable to swallow. I am being normal afterall...

The title is for a reason. I banished myself from writing something about someone and I did just that. Almost that is..

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Jobless

The last time I opened to post a new bloglet was new year's eve. I thought I wanted to write something other than new year and its importance just to prove that I was different. After some countable number of starts, I gave up - I probably didn't give it enough importance to express it in words - or I was probably bored of the same stuff as it so often is.

Today was the first day I was not on any payroll since 11 July 2004. What started as so much common place a month ago seemed a bliss yesterday. It all boiled down to the fact that I was finally leaving that place - a place which I joined as a fresher with so many dreams back in July 2004. No more comments of that place - whatever good and bad came with it is gone now and all I have now is my own future to look at...

The path is open now - all I am asked to do is traverse it at full flight. Let see where it takes me to. Liability is a curse - it could have been the only difference between a roark and any bum who wasted his life..

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