I had a rambing thought...
04.13.06 (3:03 pm) [edit]...and it was long gone before I could even decipher it. The ruefully short period was marked by much speculation of what went wrong. Its the same train of plain small thoughts after that. I feel irritated, much more than I had originally planned for.
I have never used a snooze button in my alarm. I don't even know how to do it in my alarm and would certainly falter during my first attempt. It was very tiring today, but I had another tiring day ahead of me.
Its strange that I was reading about 'the hulk' the other day. I am an angry man myself and sometimes I am driven too much by it. I liked the ending of the Hulk, wherein he lives a long life - so long that all humans are extinct and only a peculiar cockroach like being inherits the earth. The hulk finally gets what he always wanted - loneliness. He would eventually lose all his powers for his anger fuels him and would eventually become obsolete. Am I?
Sometimes darkness is a boon...
Getting it right the n'th time
04.12.06 (1:36 am) [edit]There is always a sense of apprehension after a long day at office without doing any meaningful work. Its the sense that beats you down to the wire, if you lost all the table tennis you played in the office and the failure in securing a accomodation for the weekend vacation. And after all this you feel that you are irritated not by these but by something else that you want to hide, then you are in serious trouble.
I am quite tired. I need some method to get out of this and be myself again...Its the sense of freedom a bird would need albeit its flyworthy and under no cages. It knows it can move out of its free will but it doesn't - somehow there are hidden cages within itself.
I tend to be serious in my outlook when I am sad. When I say serious, I mean looking at things rather not easily. When I was losing my ping pong battle today, I was trying to be as serious as a dying fish, but the only difference was that I was just trying. There are so many things in my mind that I am getting the small things wrong, basic issues blurred - overall, I am playing the perfect part in a blotched play.
Its been a while since I saw things lightly. Its ever so bad...