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12.30.04 (2:46 am) [edit]
2004 is almost over and i thought of dedicating this entry to the wonderful year i had...this is truly special year for i ended my student career(not learning career lol) and got into a job...so here r the top 10 things i did this year and i have placed them in order..i want this to be short and sweet...
1. joined my first job - on july 12th, a day i ll remember forever
2. i completed my college and got that damned degree
3. my first air travel - happened between 1 and 2
4. refused(sometimes rudely) any solace from my friends...this was indeed a major change...for ppl who knew me before
5. kept fasting in the month of ramzan out of home
6. became nocturnal - my job demanded it
7. spent more time out of home rather than in it - not more than 3 months in my home
8. started blogging(i started writing a diary too) - is it so important???!!
9. i am learning to cook...somethin i had no idea of doin ever in my life
10. i came to know all about mainframes - purely technical stuff
so there u go...my top 10...
deja vu and science
12.28.04 (11:09 pm) [edit]long time no science stuff in my blog...i know i give sill reasons to fill my blog with crap but then i intend to make it more interesting and non-monotonous...so lets talk abt deja vu and how science explains that...
most of us wud have experienced deja vu in our lives...its the feelin of familiarity with something that shudnt b familiar at all...well all know this but how science explains this strange phenomenon??
science believes its just a side effect of temporal-lobe epilepsy...in simple terms this phenomenon is a temporary disorder in the nervous system that causes convolusions..the deja vu appears just after or during the convulsions...but one major glitch in this reason is that almost 70% of humans have deja vu and most of them have no other nervous disorder....but this theory has been widely accepted...
one more interestin fact - there r 2 types of deja vu : deja visite(already visited) and deja vecu(already experienced and live through)...the former is when u feel u have been to places when u see them for the first time and second is when u feel a incident similar to current happened before in the same environment and people around....
wat ur heart really longs for!!
12.24.04 (10:25 am) [edit]its been quite a while since i wrote some blog abt my thinkings(which i call philosophies..lol)....so here i start it again...
wat our heart really longs for is not a question that has a simple answer...if someone says it wants everyone to love them then its false...it sometimes wishes some ppl hate them all the time...it always doesnt stand as a devil but its no angel either!!!
the truth is that it is highly moody...wat it feels mainly depends on the mood in which we r in at that moment...it wants care sometimes(most of the times) and it doesnt want anyone else to care for them sometimes....
regarding relationships, it expects different things from diff people...but the universal truth is that(we dont need a prophet to tell this) the people whom we love more r the ones we hate more sometime later...thats coz we expect a lot from them...too often i have been angry on people who didnt get angry enuff when i did a mistake or hurt them...thats coz i love them deeply....
wat does it long for now??
the diary of a young girl!!
12.23.04 (12:01 am) [edit]no no...am not wirting abt the diary i stole from a girl..its a book...a true story...a rather true diary...the diary of Annie Frank, a 14-year old jew girl who wrote it when she was hiding in a secret place in nazi occupied holland in 1943-44....the diary has many tales to tell...
the book itself is childish...wat more could u expect from a 14-year old...it has details of only the people who were in hiding with her(2 families) and their kiddish fights and sufferings...it doesnt reveal the sufferings of many other jews who were not lucky enuff to hide and found various kinda deaths in the hands of the unforgiving nazis....i have read better books givin such details...
but the tragedy lies in the fact that it is unfinished...they were caught on august 4,1944(the last diary entry is on august 1) and all of them except annie's father were killed later(a fact later found out)...the diary left me with a heavy heart...
a practicals i almost failed!
12.21.04 (12:01 am) [edit]well well!! i made my first ever real cookin today...had been plannin for a long time but today was the day(can call it C-Day) and i was all set to work...this is no recipe for the dish but read on...
everythin was ready by 11:30 in the morning...the plan was to make chicken chopsey and rice for lunch...to help me(or did i help him??) was a room-mate of mine who had prior experience in cookin but never tried anythin as complex as chicken chopsey!
all things bought, i did the cleaning part and he did the cutting...after much delay we were able to start at around 12...the kadai(a cookin vessel) was placed in the stove and we boiled oil...the we put in the onions and put the stove in high mode so that it cud get ready fast...after 5 mins we had to reduce the flame...thats when calamity stuck...the knob wudnt turn and the contents started to fume...the quick thinker in my friend removed the vessel out of stove and then we tried hard with the knob...finally it gave in and after half an hour or so we had the chicken chopsey ready...
anyone who knows cookin will acknowledge that boilin rice is a child's play...but hear on...the heroes of the last episode who managed to make a chicken chopsey under all difficulties, faltered in this mission :-(
we simply put in too much rice and after 15 mins or so the pressure cooker ditched us...it spit rice all over the kitchen...we did a good job takin the cooker out and using all out might pulled out the 'weight' we use to hold the pressure...upon opening the cooker we found that most of the rice was boiled well except for some in the bottom of the vessel....wat the hell!! we can have anythin near to boiled rice for our sweet curry!
so after the photo session was over(i used my camera mobile)...we sat to eat....to put things in perspective better than using all adjectives and adverbs i can merely say 'that was the best lunch i ever had'...
child prodigies...where do they land??
12.14.04 (10:43 pm) [edit]this is not a blog in the light vein...something serious...
this is somethin that caught my attention a week back...its about the youngest person who completed a Sun Java certification...she's from pakistan and she did it at the age of 14...the test is real tough and i am not sure the i can make it in first try(i am 21 and am workin as a software engg)...
we hear a lot abt these child prodigies...kids who r exemplory in some art or another, but do we realise the pressure on them...i am not sure they choose these fields outta their own interest but their parents merely force them so that their child gets fame...they put so much pressure that the child thinks its him/her prime interest and forgets wat he/she actually wants to be...
but where do these prodigies end after sometime?? they end up in complete mess, for when they get to know wats reality, they find it difficult to cope up with pressure...they are so young that it is difficult to prevent them from gettin such fame into their head...
so many great leaders were mere ordinary mortals at their young age...no one saw the brightness in gandhi when he was a kid...he did well due to his perseverence...einstein is perhaps the best example...he was a school throwout and he wasnt even taken for a clerk post for 'he had no brains'...he later proved the world his threory of relativity and also that he was the human who used his brains most(there r some difference in opinion to this fact)...it cudnt have been possible if he had chosen physics as his favourite merely for his parents...he did it of his own interest and so claimed world attention...
so all i want to convey is that dont force ur child into some field...let them choose wat they want to be...
dreams and more
12.09.04 (1:45 am) [edit]havent been regular in writing blogs these days...am not that busy but my ignorance reared its head!! when i finally decided to write somethin today i opened the page for addin a blog and go immersed into other activities that it is has been faithfull waitin for almost 3-4 hrs...
dreams are of various kinds...some are scary, some r fun and most are forgotten...i have had some bad dreams that have made me wake up suddenly...the good thing abt dreams is tat some r real scary that u get up and find urself releived that it was just a dream...
during my school days one dream used to haunt me...i called it exam-nightmares...it wud as though i go to a exam preparin for the wrong subject(say i study chemistry and go to school to learn that the test is on maths) or goto exam hall only not to have studied anythin...i wud go berserk and try to study at the last minute in front of exam hall...i wud be calculatin the amount of doom before me when i wake up...it is such a relief to know its a dream...such an incident never happened in my school life at all...it happened once in college and it was a paper which i was strong...i did well....
dreams always potray ur inner mind..they showcase ur fears and anticipations...given the dreams i have had i know for sure i was afraid of exams....
so often we forget dreams once we get up...i gotta tip from one of my buddies that it is best to keep a piece of paper bedside and write the dream we had in sleep as soon we get up....i never did it.......
am all sleep!!
12.06.04 (8:01 pm) [edit]too often when u r in real mood to sleep but cant u keep starin at one place all the time...ur mind doesnt work and most certainly u cant write a blog, unless u plan to say somethin that happened the same day...am in that state and i am not writin that happened today...
i think its better i write abt this current state of mine...am all sleepy now...its 10:21 pm here and i have another 8 hrs of work...i put into this position myself...
science will say that my brain cells and neurons has been workin continuously without a rest...it simply means i havent slept enuff...when we r awake we use our brain and so it has been busy quite long oflate...to hell with science...
i think of a poem now...a poem by robert frost abt a apple picker in work...he had been workin continuosly pickin apples in the field and he feels extrememly sleepy and he dreams abt more apples...the best thing abt the poem is the description of sleep..cant remember the lines though..
thinkin of the poem induces more sleep in me...how nice it wud be if i get a bed to sleep right below my cabin in the office!!i think i ll dream of apples...and hopefully not more computers!!